For 358 days of the year, I am a mostly responsible adult. Then, day 359 sweeps in to hinder my momentum.
I wake up feeling a pit of anxiety in my tummy. “Stay in bed”, it says. “Nothing good is coming of this day.”
I get up anyway.
The kids, however. Not so much. They are still in summer break mode. But band camp starts today. My teenager is in Mexico. The youngest is spending her day with Grandma. I have to leave town by eight.
But they sleep anyway.
And so goes the pace of my week. I pull into work, send a poorly timed text to hubby which results in my son being late to his first day of band camp. (They finally got up). My new regional made an appearance at work. (Thank God I did my hair today). Yet I was unprepared for the visit. Our ability to communicate is hindered by the nerves of new relationship. Instead of appearing competent and capable, I did my best impersonation of Ellie Mae from the cornfields.
Tuesday was spent in fast paced preparation for my half day Wednesday. You know, school registration.
This mommy of the year registered her 2nd grader back into 1st. Might be why they couldn’t find her paperwork from last year. Please don’t judge. This is my reality.
Thursday closes the week with a big finish. My well kept sales program is completely wiped clean from all past, present and future activities.
What am I doing today? Only cyberspace knows.
So I gave up in despair, questioning the value of all my hard work in this world.
Have you had this kind of week before?
Day 359 reminds me I need grace to fill my gaps. I can’t control my world on my own. It’s almost as if God allows everything to fall apart as a reminder that I need him to be the glue to hold everything together.
Daily, I need to ask for an eagerness for him instead of ________(money, recognition, pride, ego). Depart from the mediocre and seek life through his word. Seek assurance in his promise made to those who fear him.
My worth is not measured by the worst of my days. Restoration only occurs when I return to my rescuer. Jesus fills my gaps with grace and assures my footing for the rocky road ahead. He is my source of wisdom and strength when everything else seems to fail.
Lord, perfect your power in my weakness.
Position my eyes upon your face.
Point my heart to your truth.
Permit your promises to manifest in my life.
Redeem even the most rotten of my days.